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6.5.07
the year is 2008. i just graduate from JJ and waiting for enlistment. days spent in jjc keep bothering me today. it was a mixture of joy and sorrow. memories of the past prop me to think of the events that took place. some had commented that things will be different if i had chosen to take another path. but the past is past, you cant change it no matter how much you want to. the rain outside my window doesnt help with my current emotion. this waves of emotion of my jc life simply sweep me away. back then i laughed at people who told me that life at jc would be the most memorable times we ever had in our life. i always thought they didnt put into account the stress we had in the last year. but i was wrong. 2 years of hectic lifestyle probably had sum it up my whole teenager year. i cant turn back time, thats why i cant tell myself to enjoy my jc life if i had the chance. thats why i choose to savour the memories i had in jjc. thats all i can do. the year is 2011. finally i am enlisted into an uni. life has been easy for me, if you dun take account of the money problems i faced everyday. its seems to be that many of my friends were already starting their last year in uni, mainly the girls though. life in army was much much simple compare to here. back then the only thing i need to do is to follow the order. now it has become much more complicated. the year is 2013. i just meet some of my friends a few weeks ago. it was a class gathering dinner with my jc class. some of them has started working, while some like me are still struggling with studies and keeping awake during lectures. it is quite ironic how two years in army can bring upon such a difference between us. the girls commented that we had matured, of course we didnt want to say that they had become much more ladylike. but we did. compare to prom night, where they splash make up on their face like they were making contemporary arts, they are simply beautiful now. maybe my other friends are also the same, but it has been a long time since we meet up. i miss my secondary school class. the year is 2015. it was a hectic night after attending my friend's wedding. she finally got married le. after seeing all her friends going down the tomb of love, she cant resist it but to follow them. seeing her walking down the aisle, it reminds me of the days i spent with her. it was pretty dumb back then, back thats what teenager years are about. 2016. after working for one year, i find studying much more enjoyable than working. in the working society, one not only have to produce results to survive. if he made a wrong step in office politics, he would end up been the casulty of war. its even worse than blair saying yes to supporting bush for the invasion of iraq ( but that was decade ago ) My friend's son just turn 1 months old last week. when i went to help him witht he 1 month celebration, i cant help but think back the times we had together when we were much younger. it was like back then you can never imagine him as a responsible husband, but now he actually become a father. it become even more hilarious when he try to change the diaper of his son, he obviously didnt practise enough. have we changed? the year is 2017. i'm 28 already. wad had i achieved so far? i rmb back then, when i was still a teenager, i talk big about stuffs i'm going to do when i grow up. now, it seems nothing will ever come true. come to think of it, life is easier when you have expectations and dreams. the year is 2007. none of those above had took place. it is merely my imagination of my life in the next 10 years. now i'm still studying for my maths test tmr and hiding away from the blazing sun outside. but then, to think again, i wont want to live my life with any regrets. i dun want to disappoint myself. to lead my life to a fullest is hard, but i can start by trying. maybe i should start by passing the maths test tmr. xp |