26.12.09
 Today is a thinking day. Quite a few people asked me, what do you want for your future? What if you make it? What if you dont? What if something happen? I dun know how to reply. To me, future is something very unreal. There are too many uncertainties, too many factors to consider. Yes I can plan for my future, but what if things turn out differently? I used to spend the time before sleeping to think about future scenario, and how i will react to it. Like for example, what if i ask a girl out to date? In one night, i can think of thousand and eight ways to respond to all possible responses she can give me. Then from then on, i'll branch out the line of thoughts. So although i nv did ask the girl out, but in my mind, she probably already went out with me more than hundred times. That is so stupid. But anyway, that is not important. Lets say one day, suddenly one person ask you "what do you want in your life?", can you immediately churn out the answer? NO! If anyone can reply in that instant,then they are just giving you the politically correct answer, the FORMAT answer! "What do you want for your future?" is that kind of question which you need days to think about, to ponder on. I believe a person at different stage of life have different ideas of their future. When i'm young, i want to have a room specially for my lego city ( i'll build a city using LEGO ). When i'm in lower sec, i want to be an architect in the future. When i'm 15-16, i just want to be rich. However on some days when i'm more deep in thoughts, i want to own a small cosy cafe and spend quality time with loved one. SO if You tell me all along in you life you want to earn big bucks and drive big car in the future. I'll say you are lying to yourself. That is not the true you. That is the person that the modern capitalist society wants you to become. To strike for the gold pot at the end of rainbow. To a baby, he will choose his toy over a million dollars cheque. However, i dont deny money is important. Those who say that life should not be all about earning money are all morons. They are either well off to start with or super religious. Try telling a starved beggar that money are not important and that spiritual development is more important than anything. I swear they will stand up and stab you with whatever they have in their hand. Money is essential! But then different people have different definition of enough money. For me, enough money is the luxury of traveling freely. For you, it might even be a sentosa cove landed property. Everyone can tell you big dreams, big hopes, big fantasy. I think that is all crap. The bigger you dream, the longer you stay in your fantasy little world. Those who just do with a simpler goal will be the one that make it. YES, they always ask you to dream big, to aim high. I SAY that is bullshit. You hear one success story and got "WAHHH, i always want to be like him, i should follow his step". OKAY, first of all, what you hear is THE ONE success story, and not the TRILLIONS fail story. Second, if everyone thinks the same as you, the whole world would already be flooded with successful people,but too bad its not. Third, the truth is always ugly, thats why success story are all sugar coated in order to sound more attractive. Don't be so naive. Okay, LI TI le. anyway, the thing i want to say is, future is not something so focus on monetary point of view. Yes, you want to earn money. But what happens after that? Earn more ah? Future is also not something i can think of in an instant. Future is also something private which i wont want to share with you. Unless you want the standard format answer ( i'm good at it, i went thru A and O level ) have you ever wonder why MOE always want standard answer and not some creative answer that only you can come out with? stay tune to my next "wtf are they thinking about"session. |