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15.9.11
life begins at www.kairostime.blogspot.com 9.8.11 every now and then, I will come to a crossroad in life. It is at here that i will need to decide what do I want for the next few years of my life. Right now, I'm in one. I might fall to the weakness of my heart, and succumb to the dark side. But at the end of day i still wish for an angel to bring me back to senses. I believe there are still keys out there to open my lock. Please don't come too late. 我会在灯火阑珊处等你.. end of this blog. 19.5.11 不要再普普通通的过日子了， 是时候轰轰烈烈的活在当下！ 我们20出头，正站在人生的起跑点。若人生有四季，我们正处于疯狂的夏天。 夏天代表暑假，也代表热情奔放。夏日也是恋爱的完美季节。 人生是有限的，夏天也是短暂的，就让我们潇潇洒洒的走一回吧！ 让我们在这有限的光辉岁月中尽情的奔放！ 1.5.11 I have specifically told myself to refrain from voicing any comments regarding the general election. one reason being I probably can't write as well nor have time to find and cite any historical examples or statistical data like most of the posts already available out on the net. u can find many examples at Facebook, online citizen or some other political blog. Just go to ur Facebook live feed, u will probably find a few there. the other reason being I think my point of view is rather unpopular with the majority of the people who surf the net. so while I'm suffering the effect of caffeine overdosage, I shall quickly write something down too. the system is not perfect. any form of organisation, system that is created by man is not perfect. because we are not perfect to start with. hence we end up creating a flawed system. communism. china being the very symbol of communism is now becoming the country with the highest income gap between the rich and poor. communism or pseudo capitalism? Marx system was perfect until the human factor steps in. meritocracy too. what started out as choosing the best ppl for the job create a system where the best choose the best. meritocracy will eventually leads to dictatorship and elitism. so bringing it back to the political scene, who are we to say which party is better or which party is now? it doesn't matter who is in power. the whole political system is imperfect, problem will come regardless who is in control. whether is it a one party system or a multi party system. we had seen example of one party system that failed, and we had always seen example of failed multi party system. regardless whether it is communism or democracy, there is always a flaw in the system. Ruling party are ignorance to public opinion? Opposition suggestion are impractical? Do they really matter? even if today they switch their role, I believe the point will not change. the new ruling party will still be complained with the same thing, and the new opposition will still be put down by the government. it is the system. and there is nothing much you can do about it, because we are in it. (do u think a fish trap inside a fish tank can do anything about it? it might as well just eat and breed in it for the rest of it's life.) furthermore come may 7, you and I will also show our support to the flawed system. this is the hard truth. 30.3.11 what if one day u open a door and behind it is a different place from what u expect? like the idea of door from adjustment bureau, doremon, starhub commercial. will u enter the door? 11.3.11 lalalallalallalalalla 6.3.11 wrote this for my fren when I said I want to describe to her what an average life is. the original question was whether she wants to be extremely unhappy and bitter for a short period of time but enjoy the fruit of labour after that or just be averagely happy forever. so to describe an average life, here it goes "u work hard, graduate with a decent degree or diploma. then u get a job that pay average. u slog for a few years, work sucks because it's not what u like, but u just do because u feel the opportunity cost of jobless is too high. u can trap inside a job u dun like, u want to upgrade but u doubt u can take the stress of going back to books again. so everyday is just a drag to work. one day u saw someone u like, u two begins the ordinary courtship of movie, dinner plus a few occasion visit to neighbouring country only because ur work pays well but not that well. eventually two of u get married after 2 years in the relationship. firstly, u feel that u are too old to start a new relationship with someone else. secondly, u think he is just the kind that is decent enough to get married to. he also might married u because of pressure from age, social circle and mainly two of you might get married in order to pursue the social obligation that society put on you. also, u do need to marry in order to own a hdb before 35. you want to buy a car but can't afford on ur own. you want to buy a house but can't afford on ur own. however now that u are married, the combined financial status is just enough to afford both. just enough for a 4 room flat at a non mature estate with a simple Japanese car. life is simple, day is repeated. honeymoon period over, life is about payments after payments, days after days. the greater calling and also the government and also social pressure leads to a baby or two to complete the family. you raise ur kids with the mindset that you want to download all available information into their brain so they can be the person you never become. you keep telling them that they need to study hard hard so they can be a useful person, a doctor or a lawyer, it just doesn't matter as long as they have the income. u tell them if they dun study hard they will be average like u. but like all well known stats, average parents give birth to average children because of the lack of exposure to extraordinary and also lack of resources to download more into their brain. work is a drag, family is a drag, life is a drag. soon as u hit middle age, ur parents start to clock up hefty medical bill like all old people will, and ur children starts to be rebellious. ur day starts at 6, ends at 12. in order to keep the ends meet, the house in order, the laundry done. then u ask urself is that me for the next 10 years. unfortunately, yes. because Singapore children dun grow up till they graduate from Uni; which could be a good 25years for u to support them, wash their clothes, house them and give them monthly allowance so they can bring their gf to fancy restaurant that u dun even dare to enter in order to save more money for the household. u then define shopping as purchasing stuff from supermarkets while taking notes of discounts and offers. ur only pleasure out of life remains unknown because ur time is not ur time, ur time is divided by the demand of work and family. u dun even look the same because of the lack of resources and opportunity to doll up. u probably look fatter because of post pregnancy figure. so after u hit 50, u ask urself is that all to life?" is that what we want from life? 5.3.11 sat end, just like that. and then sun will end, also with a blink of an eye. in fact, next week will come and pass without me noticing, Prelim too will come and pass, the long study break from work, the exam, all will come and pass. then 2011 will reach the end and before I know it, it's 2012 and I'm 23, 2 years away from my target age of 25 where I got my next 10 years all figured out. then like 2011,2012 will zoom pass without any delay. in fact when I think about it, the last decade was a blur, like something out of a old singapore TCS drama, like channel 5 growing up series. you can't be sure whether it is real or mixed with dreams and tv. i'm pretty sure it was colored and not yellowish like my current memory of it. time pass. very. fast. and I still haven't figure out what I want with my life. the void is there, the gap is there. and time just won't tell. above rantings is the result of sleeping in afternoon and waking up totally blur with what's going on because the sky looks like morning. romance is dead. 31.1.11 life has been rather exciting, every day is a mad rush to finish daily reports/weekly reports/monthly reports at work, followed by squeezing my way to SIM, attend lesson in a zombie like trance, then squeeze my way home again. two things to highlight, Singapore is overcrowded. (our population increased by 20% in 10 years, don't believe can google it) Secondly, SIM food stall operate on a monopoly basis and we student feel the effect of the inflation of global food price ahead of the rest of the nation. back to why life is exciting, because i never know when one day i will run out of energy to do everything and just drop dead and die. woohoo.. but on the other hand, if those auntie uncle school mates of me can do it, so can i! at least i dun need to go back home and do housework. woohoo.. cny coming. |